Be loved the way you need to be loved, remember that this path you are on in this realm is your path alone. It’s your spiritual growth, No one can ever understand what makes you really tick, your soul mate, with the correct communication might understand to some extend. That’s only if you allow those deep inside knowledge to be understood.
Just remember that the life you want to create is in your hands, the love you require and long for is for you to decide. Live the life you want to live. You are not second to anyone !